Doing Good

Just checking in. 

Tonight I had my first show ever without either coffee, sugar, gluten or alcohol to pep me up. This, friends, was unusual and uncomfortable to start with, but I soon warmed up and enjoyed myself. 

I think I am starting to get through the withdrawal's at a deeper level. I seem to be more awake, but also more sleepy. Today, for example, I slept for four hours in the middle of the day. This lack of coffee makes me realise how tired I must have been this whole time, just naturally, and wonder about the effects of covering this over day after day for years and years, as we tend to do to commonly in these here times. 

Anyway, I am surviving. My body is loosing weight, and a steady pace. I am feeling a lot better than I did. 

That's all for today!

Starting to feel good!

 Hey There

Well, shortly after I started this blog, I was diagnosed with a thyroid disorder - under active, early stages.

It was really the boost I needed in order to take my sugar-free lifestyle more seriously. Now I am also gluten, coffee, and mainly dairy free. 

It's been a few weeks, and I have survived dinner's out, drinks, cooking birthday cakes and birthday parties. It's actually not so hard once you accept that this is the way it is.

I have lost a few kg's, and when I wake up in the morning, life is easier. My moods - I'm still mad, but less quick to react. 

CB

Day Six - pick up sticks (and cry a little)

Yesterday was day six, and it was the worst yet. Not bad in terms of holding out from sugar - that has become relatively simple. It was just the tears, the body aches, the emotions. It's possible I'm also running a virus at the same time as giving up sugar, or it's possible that these symptoms are part of the withdrawal process. 

All I know was that there was barely a room I entered yesterday that did not see me burst into tears in it's surrounds. 

So that's why I say Day Six, pick up sticks. In the same way the Zen proverb "chop wood, carry water". Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. Life must go on, sticks still need to be picked up, and pick them up I will. 

The psychological addiction to sugar is the biggest stumping post I run up against - just the usual way I have of bringing forth my "energy" for a big day with work or the kids, it doesn't work anymore. Coffee makes me feel ill, my body doesn't want it. 

So I have to listen to my body. SOmeone said to me yesterday - "Your body would not punish you. Your body is your best friend - it is always trying to tell us things and when we don't listen, we get chronically ill". She was a Dr. She has a point. 

Love,

CB

Day Three

Breakfast beans, beans, more beans, with lots of olive oil and rosemary and garlic. Yoghurt with fruit

Lunch; tomato and tuna sauce with rice

Dinner: mexican mince with cous cous, salad and roasted pumpkin

Moodwise, wow what a day. Late night up with the babies, slept through till 7.30pm. Really really grumpy day. Yelling at people in anger pretty much all day - really low tolerance, fiercely bad mood, wanted to kick and blame something or someone. 

Managed to avoid avacado at dinner- proud. Had double the sour cream though!

Also noticing this terribly annoying thing; that when I drink coffee (with soy milk), my throat feels like it is swelling up, and gets uncomfortable. On top of this, I get a very similar problem when I drink beer or wine, with the addition of my nose being blocked suddenly. At this stage I have limited myself to one coffee a day, and two generous serves of alcohol on Friday and Saturday, but am I going to have to give up this pleasure as well? Am I wheat or sulphites intollerent?

Is there anything I can enjoy?

Yes

a juicy fresh peach

garlic, ginger and basil

cup of tea

bonsoy 

eggs with rice

duck

seasoned tempeh

smoked tofu

big fresh salad

fresh mint and lime with soda and ice

salty pork

a few pieces of dried fruit (easy tiger)

lovely things

Goodbye nasty day three. 

Cups of tea. 

Day 1

Day 1

• sweet Potato and fish stew for breakfast (I know, ew! But it was actually very good)
  
• scrambled eggs with ham and herbs, green salad w/ carrot for lunch
• pork with roast potatoes, broccoli, beans, wine jus
• a coffee for dessert (?)

Reflection;

A good day, but coffee for dessert is not a good idea, and remember to question the wine jus in the future - was really delicious, but I should really ask in the future whether something that delicious contains added sugar.  I don't think it did, but I must learn to ask. 

Going to bed now, 11.11pm. It is too late for someone who wants to get up at 5.30am...reallly should not have had that coffee for dessert.....

THE RULES : Week One

WEEK ONE

• 5.30am wake up monday - friday.
• no sugar
• no wheat
• no cashews
• no avocados
• only white cheeses
• no processed food wherever possible
• two glasses of alcohol on Friday and Saturdays only
• one coffee in the morning if truly desired
• two pages of writing a day
• 15 minutes of stretching or exercise a day